Brain Disease, the Priest's Wife, and the God Who Gives and Takes Away
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The Story of Brain Disease and the Priest's Wife
This is the story of Susan--a wife, a mother, a Christian believer, a lover of children, a writer of stories, and a woman of extraordinary intellect. Susan was diagnosed with a brain tumor in her late thirties. Although it was successfully treated, the process led to her slow and unending decline throughout the remaining nineteen years of her life.
In this personal story of love and loss, seasoned pastor-theologian Victor Lee Austin shares how caring for his wife during her long, painful struggle with brain cancer and its aftereffects brought him face-to-face with his God and with his faith in unsettling ways. God gave Victor what his heart most desired--marriage to Susan--then God took away what he had given. Yet God never withdrew his presence. Weaving together autobiographical details and profound theological insights, this powerful narrative of suffering and love is told with bracing honesty. It shows that while we cannot tidily make sense of God's role in suffering, we are called to turn to him in the face of pain and death.
1. The Beginning
How We Met--How We Went to Church--That Summer--The Previous Christmas--Her Brilliant Childhood--A Hug--The Second-Best Book in the Bible--Rejection and Reversal--Heart's Desire--The Advent Calendar--The Tree of Life--Christmas Day--A Letter to Mr. Buckley--Susan Is Published on Abortion--Children--More Children
2. The Middle
Lights--To Do What Needs to Be Done--Prayer No Longer Makes Sense--Seizure Control--Where Was God?--He Taketh Away--On the Other Hand--God Intends to Kill Us--The Executive Function--How
That Worked Out--Evil: Take One--Evil: Take Two--Evil: Take Three--The Hip--My Church Friends--
Hydrocephalus--Graduations--Prevenient Grace--We Never Doubted God's Reality--Back to College--Back to Church--Susan Walking--Those Earlier Falls
3. The End
The Return of the Seizure--And Another--This Time in Hospital--Why I Witness to These Details--The Pebble Dare--The Year That Would Be the Last--At the Epilepsy
Unit--The Dark Night--Being Heard--Recovery--Anxiety--What the Body Knows--Blessed Speech
Therapists--The Happy Return to October; Its Tragic End--The Best Book in the Bible--Sandy--What Is It?--The Kidneys Have Their Say--Crossing Another Line--Tears and Hope--December 17, 2012--May She Rest--A Christian Service--Little Lady--Why Have You Forsaken Me?--Divergence and a Dream
Epilogue: To Plumb the Depths of God's Love by Susan Austin
"In this painfully truthful book, Victor Lee Austin draws on the theological wisdom shaped by suffering and death to tell us the story of Susan's, his wife's, determination to live and love though suffering from a terminal disease of the brain. As her caregiver, he refuses to hide from himself or us how hard caring for her had been. When finished with the book, however, the reader cannot help but think: what a wonderful love story. Thank God."
Stanley Hauerwas, professor emeritus of divinity and law, Duke Divinity School; author of Hannah's Child: A Theologian's Memoir
"An amazing book. Victor Austin has written a late-modern memoir, with the biblical God as a participant!"
Robert W. Jenson, former senior scholar for research, Center of Theological Inquiry
"Victor Lee Austin breaks your heart without sentimentality, stretches your faith without clumsiness, brings you face-to-face with God without fear. By the end, you will know what it means to be precious, honored, and loved--by another and by God."
Samuel Wells, vicar, St. Martin-in-the-Fields, Trafalgar Square
"This is a moving work, carefully crafted and thoughtfully honest. With lots of love and plenty of pain throughout, these pages brought to mind others who have written similarly, such as C. S. Lewis; however, Victor Austin's account of his and his family's experience in connection with his wife Susan's illness and death remains unique. At one point he shares what Susan would say about the children they would care for as foster parents: 'that deep in their souls they would have a memory of being held, touched, cradled, cleaned, fed, and in general being loved, . . . and that such a deep memory would not be lost, and had the capacity of changing a person's life for good.' This could be said too about this very book. I wish I had personally known Susan, and I am grateful to know Austin--and for his gift in writing."
Tobias Winright, Hubert Mäder Endowed Chair, Albert Gnaegi Center for Health Care Ethics, Saint Louis University
"Losing Susan is a theo-memoir of intricate beauty. In eloquent prose, Victor Austin testifies to the way in which God surprisingly gave him the desire of his heart through his wife, Susan, and then just as surprisingly took her away. Austin does not shy away from the rough edges and unanswered questions, but instead he brings them before God, narrating a love story not only about Victor and Susan but about God and his people in a world charged with both splendor and decay."
J. Todd Billings, professor of theology, Western Theological Seminary; author of Rejoicing in Lament: Wrestling with Incurable Cancer and Life in Christ
"Father Austin has written a beautiful story of love, loss, and faith, a story that at once moves the mind to reflection, the heart to sympathy, and the will to trust. It is deep but accessible and handles pain and suffering, common to us all, with uncommon intelligence, sensitivity, and humor. This book will help those who have suffered similarly and will inspire and prepare those who have not, yet. It is above all a story of true love, the love between Victor and his dear late wife, their love for God, and God's love for them."
Stephen Hildebrand, professor of theology, Franciscan University of Steubenville
"In this theologically grounded memoir, Episcopal priest and scholar Austin . . . shares the heartbreaking story of his wife's brain cancer and its horrible aftermath. Raw and honest, Austin forces the reader to confront what caring for a terminally ill loved one means--the pain, the exhaustion, the guilt, the joy. . . . Throughout his wife's illness, Austin also wrestles with God's role in suffering and death. . . . This book will warm readers' hearts and bring them to tears. It is a story of what it really means to promise 'for better or for worse' and a must for anyone who has labored along with a loved one through their suffering."
Publishers Weekly (starred review)
"Victor Lee Austin was living a Song of Songs life. Then he learned what it's like to become Job. . . . Readers will admire Victor's fidelity to his wife and longsuffering, but his years of caring for Susan were marked by second-guessing, uncertainty, and doubts. . . . Though a memoir, the book is also a searching exposition of the Bible's Wisdom Literature. . . . Any theology that can't accommodate the thieving powers of death and disease explodes on the cross of the One who bore the brunt of unspeakable disaster. But as the empty tomb makes clear, even that is not enough to ungift divine love."
Christianity Today (5-star review)
"Austin's account of [Susan's] slow decline presents the difficulty caregivers face in having to deal constantly with the crisis of the moment rather than 'the longer, wider perspective' or even the gift of the present moment. He talks about the painful effort to preserve and acknowledge the equal personhood of the one for whom you are caring--and the difficulty that this world of evil presents to religious believers. . . . In the wake of Susan's death, Victor discovered that his Christian faith did hold him up. He realized he had neither been alone nor been tested beyond his capacities by the burdens of a sick, dying wife. He realized that though he had cared for Susan for so long, now he could see her as equal, not 'needing him' as she had, but being cared for by God just as Victor is. The real deal, as he discovered, was how the 'strange character' we call God changes our lives, through love and suffering bound inextricably together."
David P. Deavel,
"Losing Susan is an inspired story that defines God's love for mankind and mankind's love for one another. Two small lives so carefully crafted by the Master mirror the precious, delicate, intimate relationship God has with each one of us. . . . Love defined, authentic, sweet, tragic, honest, and unforgettable. This must-read book . . . will make a lasting difference in the lives of readers."
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